nellaJIZZLE

so long

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 17:52:12 GMT

yea its definitely been a long time since i last posted anything...well here i am posting stuff...but im in college now...which kinda even surprises me cause i thought i never would be able to even handle another year of school let alone another 4...but i mean here i go onward in my quest for a college education...haha....ummm...what else...oh my cousins from cali are coming so it will be awesome...and i guess thats it....here's my myspace... www.myspace.com/nellajizzle ...check it out...haha...add me as ur friend :p
ummm...alrighty then...check u later!!!!(if u can tell me what movie that was from...then u rock!)
<3 daniela

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 13:53:37 GMT

wow...it has been long since i wrote in this....i do have a xanga in which i have not written in for a while as well..anyway...i was thinking maybe i should write in it cause if i dont they will shut me down...and i dont want that to happen so i am adding a new journal....neway okie....i have a mysoca to...but i cant put the link now cause i cant get into it...damn school

bye

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 15:57:35 GMT

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....im bored and waiting for meghan fay to come over and order chinese food....and maybe steph will come over

loser...i am such a loser

I'MMMMMMMMMMM BACKKKKKKKKK

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 16:44:25 GMT

HEY GUYS!!!...i got back yesterday and i am sooo excited...i had an awesome time and i wish i could go back....so yesterday was alright...i got home around 3:30ish and my cousin came to pick us up at 4 from the airport and we had to sit in a long ass traffic jam for at least 3 hours...i got home and ran upstaris to my room......and turned on my comp and said hey to like everyone.....i miss my cousins alot :( i cried when i left them and i cried last night cause i wasnt with them....i miss them...they are like my brothers!!!

well ima sign out now cause i got to unpack and stuff!!!!

I'M OFF

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 13:50:47 GMT

ALRIGHTY THEN...GOOD BYE TO ALL....I SHALL SEE U ALL WHEN I RETURN..THAT IS IF I DECIDE TO..IF NOT...GOOD LUCK AND I HOPE U PROGRESS INTO WONDERFUL PEOPLE....<3 TO U ALL...BE SAFE AND BE TRUE!!

good-bye

SO HAPPIE!!!!!!

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 20:50:59 GMT

well so yea...i am all happy cause tonight is my last night in the united states.....i am sooooo happie.....yay!!!....okie well i am going to go.....i will miss u all....<3

chillin

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 02:05:28 GMT

so yea yesterday i went to the mall....bought The nOtebook....and read it in one sitting....it was an unbelievable book...everyone should reead that book before u watch the movie...and so tiday i went to the mall again and bought another boook...called the bend of the road or soemthign like that....and so i bought it cause they didn't have the wedding by nicholas sparks...which is the second book after the notebook....right now i am talkin to limor...and i really miss her...i do...and it feels refeshing to talk to someone that i dont have a problem with...that ultimately knows me.........it's awesome....so now my contdown is......5 days!!!!!

COSTA RICA HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one week

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 15:30:51 GMT

so yesterday i got out of school at around 10:30ish...went to my house with robin and jackie and like half an hour later....leah came and picked us up and we went to IHOP...after that we went to daddy's job...it was fun...and then we went to go drop off jackie and we decided to go take a walk at a park...and some freaky shit happened there....but other than that...it was fun then we got to robin's house....and i think robin got mad at me cause i had made plans with doma...so i left..went to my aunt's house...chilled met up with doma...and then went to the demarest carnival...went on some rides...ate some food...chilled...and hung out with paul....found out that he and this chick danny are dating...which is good...i'm glad for him...i really am...i told him someone would end up liking him....so and then later on me and doma came home and went to the dumont carnival...on the way there i saw Clem...and he was like staring me down...he scares the shit out of me!!!!...and then we got to the carnival and it was closed...so we just walked around dumont...came home...watched an hour of Degrassi and then passed out around 1 in the morning...it was fun...so yea now i am just waiting for friday to come...so i can leave and be free!!

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 01:29:04 GMT

so i leave in 8 days and i am sooooooooooooooo excited...besides the whole fact that i will have to see oscar and it will be a little awkward....but at the same time...i just want to leave this place...and probably never come back...i mean mostly my friends at dumont are leaving for college and i wont have anyone except....robin and dannie....and that ain't enough...i want zane and ray and jimmy and lefty and lindsay and maria and like all of my friends...they have been kick ass...and i will miss them and i just dont know what to do nemore...i guess its kinda fucked up...and i guess....its all messed up and my head is like a fucking easel...all this paint is flying around and i can't do anythign to stop it....i am like all depressed and i shouldn't be cause i am going to costa rica....FUCKING COSTA RICA...WHERE THE FUN DOESN'T STOP....but why am i like this......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......well anyway...tomorrow is my last day at schoola nd i guess that is a good rthign but then we got back to square one...all those good people that i will miss...all those good friends...so i guess it will be better for you all to just kill me now!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 21:51:12 GMT

stole it from doma:

A - Age:16
B - Band:Brand New
C - Choice Of Meat:ewwwwwwww
D - Dream Date:being given a locket with a key that he has over a candlelight dinner
E - Excites You: costa rica
F - Favorite Food: arroz y frijoles
G - Greatest Gift: my life
H - Happiest Day Of Your Life: the day I knew I was going to costa rica the first time
I - Internal Conflicts:that I am a bad friend/ person
J - Jealous: depends
K - Kool Aid: grape
L - Love: depends
M - Most Valuable Thing You Own: letters from friends/ pictures
N - Name: Daniela, nella or daniel
O - Outfit: pants and shirt
P - Pizza Topping: sausage
Q - Question I Want To Ask: will you miss me when I am gone?
R - Roots: costa rican
S - Sport To Watch: soccer
T - TV Show: One tree Hill, Summerland and Gillmore Girls!
V - View: ocean during sunset out of the window
W - Weather: hotttttt
Y - Yesterday's Best Meal: rice and beans with a friend egg and sour cream
Z - Zodiac sign: Libra

Last Cigarette: almost a year and a half ago
Last Kiss: oscar like 5 months ago
Last Cry: yesterday
Last Library Book Checked Out:too much of nothing
Last Movie Seen In a Theatre: shrek 2
Last Book Read: too much of nothing
Last Cuss Word Uttered: fuck
Last Beverage Drank: lemonade
Last Food Consumed: soup
Last Phone Call: a chick from my school
Last TV Show Watched: TRL
Last Time Showered: this morning
Last Shoes Worn: my black flip flops
Last CD Played: autopilot off
Last Soda Drank: I don’t remember
Last Thing Written: I don’t remember
Last Words Spoken: “fine then…”
Last Sleep: last night

Last IM: brandin
Last Sexual Fantasy: hmmmmmmmmm…..
Last Ice Cream Eaten: two weeks ago
Last Time Wanting to Die: mostly everyday
Last Lipstick: don’t wear any
Last Time Dancing: this morning
Last Show Attended: a week ago…the OFFSPRING
Last Big Car Ride: ummm……a week ago
Last Crush: chris
Last Annoyance: friends and lack of pity
Last Disappointment: myself
Last Time Scolded: huh…..
Last Shirt Worn: my labyrinth shirt
Last Web Site Visited: livejournal.com

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Kissed your cousin: ewwwwwwwwwwww
2. Ran away: almost
3. Pictured your crush/bf/gf naked: yea
5. Broken someone's heart: I hope not
6. Been in love: yes
7. Cried when someone died: it was the only sane thing to do
8. Wanted someone: yes
9. Broken a bone: yes…many
11. Lied: yes
12. Cried in school: yes

WHICH IS BETTER:
13. Coke or Pepsi: Coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite
15. Girls or Guys: Guys
16. Flowers or candy: Flowers
21. Tall or Short: short
22. Pants or Shorts: Pants

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX::
23: What do you notice first: hands and eyes
24. Last person you slow danced with: robin…*wink wink*
25. Worst Question To Ask: can u take your penis out of me?....lol

THE LAST TIME::
26. Showered: this morning
27. Taken a bath: I don’t remember

WHAT IS (your favorite):
29. Your Good Luck Charm: my watch
30. Person You Hate Most: I don’t want to get in trouble
31. Best Thing That Has Happened to You this year:going to Dumont high school
32. Color: purple
33. Movie: a lot of them
36. Finger: middle
37. Ice Cream: cookie dough
39. Season: fall

40. Breakfast Food: pinto with platanos

WHO:
43. Makes you laugh the most: rich and robin
44. Makes you smile: brett
45. Can make you feel better no matter what: robin and doma and chelsea
46. Has A Crush On You: I don’t know
47. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: yes
48. Who Has it easier? everyone

DO YOU EVER:
50. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: of course not
51. Save AOL conversations: yes…important ones
52. Save E-mails: only my cousins
53. Wish you were someone else: yes
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex? Yea so when I have to pee I can just whip it out!!!

BEST:
56. Cologne: brett’s
57. Perfume: body odor…lol….i odn’t know
58. Kiss: chocolate ones
59. Romantic memory: when Roberto gave me a necklace with matching earrings before I left costa rica

HAVE YOU:
61. Fallen for your best friend?: no
62. Made out with JUST a friend?: no
63. Been rejected: yes
64. Been in love?: yes
65. Been in lust?: no
66. Used someone?: no
68. Cheated on someone?no
69. Been cheated on?: yes
70. Been kissed?: yes
71. Done something you regret?: a lot of things

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched?: my mom
73. You talked to?: brandin
74. You hugged?: my mom
75. You instant messaged?: brandin
76. You kissed?: oscar
77. You had sex with? Ummm….i think that is personal
78. You yelled at?: my mom/ sister
80. Who broke your heart?: many people
81. Who told you they loved you?: brandin/ robin and brett

DO YOU...
82. Color your hair? Blond and lighter brown
83. Have tattoos? I wish
84. Have piercings below the waist? no
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend: no
86. Own a webcam? no
87. Own a thong? no
88. Ever get off the damn computer? yes
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? no
90. Habla espanol? Of course

HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU...
92. Stolen anything over $50? no
93. Smoke? used to
94. Schizophrenic?no
95. Obsessive? no
96. Compulsive? no
98. Panic? yes
99. Anxiety? yes
100. Depressed? sometimes
101. Suicidal? I was

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Mon, 07 Jun 2004 20:41:39 GMT

well today was my last official day at the wonderful world of dumont high school....and it was quite lovely.....i heard from a friend...jackie that her and swoosh swoosh boy...are going out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....yay!!!!!!!!!!!....lol...and now i am stressing cause i have my math final tomorrow and i am going to shit in my pants...lol...so neway i cant wait for friday cause i am going to the dumont carnival with all my lovely peeps....and later i shall update with my weekend

jackie and swoosh swoosh...lol ;)

another annoying survey...when i should be studying!!!

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 18:08:01 GMT

SECTiON 1 ABOUT YOURSELF
+ Known as: Daniela
+ Gender: female
+ Age: 16
+ Lives in: Dumont, nj
+ Birthday: Oct 18th
+ School: Dumont High School
+ Ethnicity: Hispanic- costa rican
+ Shoe size: 5 ½, 6
+ Hair color: brown
+ Eye color: dark brown
+ Style: anything comfortable and how I feel when I wake up
+ Fears: losing more friends to death, death, failure and the end of the world

SECTiON 2 HAVE YOU EVER...
+ Cheated on someone? no
+ Fallen off the bed? yes
+ Fallen for a relative? Ewwwwwwwwww…..gross
+ Broke someone`s heart? I hope not…cause it hurts so much
+ Had your heart broken? Yes broken so many times...i don’t think it can be mended
+ Had a dream come true? Still waiting for it
+ Done something you regret? Of course
+ Cheated on a test? Yes I have

SECTiON 3 CURRENTLY...
+ Wearingsweatpanys and a shirt with a frog smoking up and drinkin a corona.
+ Listening to? The worst hangover ever
+ Reading? Nothing.
+ Located? In my room
+ Chatting with? friends
+ Watching? A knights tale.
+ Should REALLY be doing? Studying for my finals.

SECTiON 4 DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? Of course
+ Like anybody? yes
+ Have any piercings? No but tomorrow I will
+ Drive? nope.
+ Believe in Santa Claus? no
+ Got a cellphone? No
+ Got a pager? NO

SECTiON 5 FRiENDS...
+ Who is your best? Was chrsitina…she is in heaven now
+ Who do you hate? Everyone at nvd minus like 6 people
+ Who is the shyest? leah
+ Who is the most talkative? Me and robin
+ Who is the cutest? I don’t know
+ Who laughs the most? Me and robin
+ Who have you known the longest? Chelsea and rich
+ Who have you known the shortest? robin
+ Who do you miss the most? christina
+ Who do you turn to for personal problems? Chelsea and rich
+ Do you hang out with the opposite sex? Yes
+ Do you trust your friends? Some of them
+ Are you a good friend? I hope
+ Can you keep a secret? yes

SECTiON 6 THE LAST PERSON YOU...
+ Hugged? Rollie…my cousin
+ Kissed? Oscar like 5 months ago
+ IMed? brandin.
+ Talked to on the phone? robin
+ Yelled at? Chelsea and rich
+ Fell in love with? nobody

SECTiON 7 PERSONAL...
+ What do you want to be when you grow up? A history major and have my own band and open up a shelter for battered children and raise them…like the old women who lived in a shoe!!!!
+ What has been the best day of your life? Hasn’t happened yet
+ What comes first in your life? My family
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? I have a crush
+ What are you most scared of? Losing another friend
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed? What happened during the day
+ Did you lose someone you really loved? Yes…two people
+ How many times have you fallen deeply in love? Once…I beleive
+ Love your family? yes
+ Love your friends? yes
+ Have you fought? With who?

SECTiON 8 FAVORITE...
+ Movie: lord of the rings trilogy
+ Song: the boy who blocked his own shot- brand new
+ Group/s: the offspring, brand new, taking back Sunday, yellowcard and others
+ Store: any shoe or cd store
+ Relative: Rollie…my cousin…and my two other cousins
+ Sport: skateboarding
+ Ice Cream Flavor: cookie dough
+ Fruit: apple
+ Candy: warheads.
+ Holiday: christmas
+ Day of the Week: saturday
+ Color: purple
+ Name for a Girl: chloe or christina
+ Name for a Boy: caleb or christopher
+ Favorite spot for a date: the beach
+ Quote: "...I cry alot-I dont know why, but it just helps me. I cry over bad and good stuff-sometimes sadness can be beautiful"
-Amy Lee

SECTiON 9 DO YOU...
+ Like to give hugs? Yes…only to people I want to give hugs to
+ Like to give kisses? Not really…they are saved and stashed in a box under my bed
+ Like to walk in the rain? Yes….its like I am walking through a field of sadness.
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black
+ Like to travel? I have only been to two places…but it was fun
+ Sleep on your side, tummy or back? On my tummy
+ Think you're attractive? no
+ Have a goldfish? Yes but my mom killed it
+ Ever have the falling dream? Yes

SECTiON 10 WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: I don’t believe it’s the right thing…it’s murder…but it is a women’s personal decision…just remember unremarkable killin a baby
+ Bill Clinton: ehhh…he’s okie
+ Smoking: nope
+ Eating Disorders: hell no
+ Suicide: it took my best friend away
+ Summer: good…when I am in costa rica
+ Tattoos: I want to get one
+ Piercings: I’m getting my brow pierce
+ Make-up: chap stick is the extent of my make-up

SECTiON 11 THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? EYEBROW?
+ Single or taken? Single
+ MTV or BET? They are both overrated
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? One tree hill
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? silver
+ Chocolate or flowers? chocolate
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? Color
+ M&M's or Skittles? skittles
+ Stay up late or sleep in? sleep in
+ Hot or cold? cold
+ Sun or moon? moon.
+ Left or Right? left
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? One best friend
+ Mustard or ketchup? ketchup
+ Spring or Fall? fall
+ Happy or sad? happy
+ Wonder or amazement? wonder
+ McDonald's or Burger King? Burger king
+ Mexican or Italian food? mexican
+ Lights on or off? off
+ Candy or soda? Soda
+ Pepsi or Coke? coke

Sun, 06 Jun 2004 16:11:08 GMT

well yesterday i hung out with doma, rich and chelsea....doma came over around 3 and then we walked from dumont halfway to closter and caryn saw us so she gave us a ride there...then when we got there...we went to starbucks...hung out went to cvs...saw greg, brian and this other dude......afterwards we saw courtney, meghan and christine......then me and doma went to Rudy's for dinner...and we went to cvs again and on our way back we saw rich...then we went minituare glofing and met up with chelsea and then rich pushed em into a bush and everyone was maing fun of me and called me a hobbit...cause u could only see my feet dangling out of the bush....but other than that it was fun!!!!!!!!!

yea....it was fun...i'll miss them when i go to costa rica

u guys are meant for each other...stop being idiots and go for it...u have nothing to loose

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 14:06:06 GMT

sit here
have these memories flow over me
the place where everything seems right
talk is cheap they say
yet that is what i do
everything is alright
in this memory hell
the ringing of the bells
and the sound of the waves on the rocks ring through my ears
like a thousand knives in my back
yet that is what i feel all the time
friends not matter how close they are will hurt you
wit every word they say
it will hurt
i sit here and engulf this pain
you sit there and laugh
a laugh that is both mischievious and cunning
just feel the pain in which i suffer and you will know how to love me
loving me is not the easiest but if you know me
know my pain and sacrifices
my heart and my mind
know my palm
just don't take away my memories
they are my life and my soul
without them i feel captivated by a rope around my neck
is that what you want from me
to lose it?
then how will you love metake the knife out of my back and be kind
you selfish hunter
please let me not be your prey any longer
my memories are my hell and my heaven

*it's pretty bad....i'm in physics class...and they are studying and it is mighty boring.....so if its good...or a piece of crap....just ell me flat out....negativity is what brings out my positive side!!!!!

OFFSPRING!!!!!

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 23:41:28 GMT

so yesterday i went to the offspring concert with robin and her papa.....it kicked ass.......i had an awesome time and my body is sooooooooo sore........but it was all worth the sweat and pain..let me tell you.....DEXTER....IS HOT!!!!...but anyway i was there jumpimg around sweating my balls....(figure of speech)....and all these people are pushing and shoving, i got bruises everywhere!!!!!......there really isn't anythign else to say except.....for i can't wait for friday....THE LIVING END.....HERE I COME!!!!!!!

HEAVEN

Sun, 30 May 2004 01:45:55 GMT

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW ALL ABOUT MY DAY?...WELL HERE IT IS!!!!!

THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS THOMAS....as u can see i can go on and on and on forever about THOMAS...he is amazing, amaxingly gorgeous and so damn hot that he is the type of man to make straight men gay and gay women straight....and I htink god even thinks he's hot

I WANT YOUR BOD THOMAS!!!!!!!

day off

Fri, 28 May 2004 00:24:47 GMT

first off i would liek to say that i took a day off today and it was amazing...and i watched an awesome
movie...called....the last american virgin...it is by far the best 80's movie made.......i love the music...and the plot of the movie....it was awesome!!!!!!...well this week has been goos so far...on monday nothing happened.....and on tuesday i went with robin to the talent show at nvd...it was okie but i didnt like who won...then afterwrds me, robin, chelsea, steph and doma went to yogurt lovers...and then came home...on wednesday i had my big presentation...and i was sooooooooo nervous...but i got an 82 on it...so i am soooo glad...and i am excited for saturday cause me and robin are workin with porky, joel and THOMAS......*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*...i love thiomas...i want his sexy chezoslavakian ass....lol....and on friday i am havin a bbq at robins and sleepin over so we can go to work.......and after work i think i am getting my eyebrow pierced.....yea!!!!!!!!

Tue, 25 May 2004 00:42:02 GMT

i feel so bad...cause i know how it feels to like someone and then have them not like you back...and then go ahead and say that they never will cause they can't...and now i know how the other person feels...cause i feel like shit...i just don't know what to do...i ahte this feeling....i mean...why do we ahve to feel thiis way....i just want to go to costa rica and like never come back....i do...i mean who will really miss me...in all sincerity...probably robin...cause i mean she is like me....we have everything in common..she is my soul mate....but then who else...doma....she and i aren't the same way nemore...she never tells me nething...and in return i don't either...i just don't know my purpose nemore.....and then after those two....there is nobody else....i dont event hink the person who likes me will...he will get over me and soon find someone else...and i guess its better for him...there are better people than me...that he deservs...he won't "like" me after he actually gets to know me....no one ever will.....i just wish everything can go back to 8th grade and 9th...after christina died...everythign went downhill...i thought u were supposed to be my guardian angel...i miss u...i need my friend back...i need all of my friends back...i am truly sorry for everything that i have done...and i regret with every bone in my body...and it's eating me away alive!!....i need to get away....but what is there for me in costa rica...oscar...oh great....that'll just be another awkward position...everywhere i go is goin to be weird...i want to go away for college and ultimatley never look back...it's for the best....i just hope robyn will be okay!!!!....BOOGER....BIG HUGE BOOGER

Mon, 24 May 2004 01:27:23 GMT

whats new crew?.....this weekend was pretty good...on friday i stayed home and just hung out around the house...then on saturday i took care of my sis til 4 and at 6 i went out to see shrek with rich and chelsea and rich drove...ahhhhhhhh...then we went to her house and hung out...today i did my report and went to church....so thats all i have to say....i just wanted to update this thingy

<3 to all

uh ohhhhhhhhhhh

Fri, 21 May 2004 03:16:10 GMT

okei so yea....i was thinkin man...daniela...u havent been happie in a while...and then i started to think of a time when i really was the most happiest...and thus i came to the conclusion i was happiest in middle school...u know...the friends...u thoought u would keep in highschool...and grow old with...and the binfamous boyfriend u knew u were goin to marry....well what happens when u forward that up to 4 years....it is present time.....and the friends u thought were forever weren't...one of them is in the sky and the rest have become ghosts...even to themslves....and that boyfriend u knew was the love of ur life....didnt last a week cause u fucked it up cause u were to scared?...that is how i feel...i mean i have always have a soft spot for chris...always...but i mean it was just blown away...or put into a deep deep dark corner casue of joe and oscar...what am i to do know?.....i want to tell him...but then there is always the fear of rejection or the fear that he will say yes and not really be the way u thought it was going to be?...and what if u had two friends...well one friend and someone u love (like a sister)...like him to....do u proceed with the idea or let it slide casue u dont want to hurt them?

what to do? what to do?

i need tog o away and hope that everything goes away...i just dont want this feelin to go away cause it might be real...and if it were real....and if he feels the same way....i want that....I REALLY DO...regardless of what peopel think or say or even do.....i need to be happy and if this does...then by golly i am takin a stand...i just dont want it to be a joke when he finds out!

Tue, 18 May 2004 16:18:37 GMT

i hate life and whoever invented it...should die...i hate it with a passsion....i hate the fact that i get to know people then someone comes and ruins it...yesterday was okie...i guess...robin came over and we went to court with my mom and then we went to a and p...i saw soma there...that was good...and i saw aunt re...and jena and then of course life got not get any worse at that moment...i saw joe b....why does he do that to me?...he makes me like him...and then i feel like a jack ass cause i do and there isnt anything special about him...its just him...the things he does....his idiotic nature...ahhhhhhhhh....but then i came home and talked to brandin...my bro...which i like...cause i get to vent to him and he gets to vent to me...its nice and i havent spoken to him in a while and talkin to him made me feel alot better...he made me fell me again!!!!

right now i am home from school...cause i had a double lunch and i hate school and most of the people in my school...so i didnt go out to lunch because someone had to fuck a perfectly good tradition...fuck you!!!!.....and now i have to go back and suffer for 2 more hours...AHHHHHH...can someone come and just kill and save me from the pain and anguish of rejection

and yes i do have a crush on 2 guys....this new kid eric and someone that i have known for a while but recently began to talk to again...why does god have to make guys...at this point i would rather be a lesbian...girls kick ass....guys make it way to difficult to wake up in the morning!!!

well i am off to torture... <3 to all...especially three people who really help me out alot...u know who u are!!!!!

Sun, 16 May 2004 23:23:24 GMT

sorrie for not writing but its been so hot that i ahve been out and about...hmmm..this week was sorta interesting...made some new friends at dhs...words to my peeps...steph, michelle, chris, stephen, kim, and eva.....and i hung with leah and robin and dannie liek everyday...i've had meetings liek everyday during lunch with the newspaer and the literary magazone and unity and shit that i have been unable to eat...s i guess i lost some few pounds...that i needed to lose...and on friday went to dannie's house to watch tombstone..best movie ever!!!!!...then on saturday went tot he mall with dannie and leah and bought a new cd..that i ahve saved up for!!!...then chilled at robin's house for a while...came home....went to marshall's saw limory...yaay!!!..rented bg fish...i recommend everyone to see that movie...and i also rented chasong liberty...it was okie...and i have been playin with my sis all day outside and i smelt real bad...like wind and sweat..we went for a run...but now i smell pretty oh so pretty...lol..okei well ima go now...yuppers yuppers

fly my little pretties...oh man...dannie i love ya!!!

Mon, 10 May 2004 21:50:06 GMT

hey there...well my weekend was awesome...friday i hung out with robin and dannie and we went to leah's house to see her in her prom dress and she looked soooo pretty...then after we went to robin's house cause my mommie wanted her cards read so robin did it and then went to work while me and my mom stayed there until 10ish...then on saturday i went to work with robin and we painted faces...it was fun then after we went to her house and then met up with leah mitsu and goofy...ewwww...we went to the pool hall and IHOP...it was fun.....i can't wait for friday...yeah!!!

Thu, 06 May 2004 23:31:13 GMT

FIRSTS

First best friend: lena joe

First car: Don't don’t have one yet

First screen name: nellawaifer

First self purchased album: hanson

First funeral: my step-grandma’s sister

First pets: chewy and tico

First piercing/tattoo: ears

First enemy: Jessica from california

First big trip: costa rica

First sport played: soccer

First Achievment: realizing that nobody is perfect…so people should stop being so hypocritical

LASTS

Last car ride: to the nail saloon with leah, robin, and jessica

Last kiss: oscar in costa rica

Last good cry: two nights ago

Last library book checked out: wuthering heights

Last movie seen: grease 2

Last beverage drank: juicy juice

Last food consumed: steak and rice

Last crush: hmmm…if I said it wouldn’t be a crush now would it?

Last phone call: work for my money

Last time showered: morning

Last shoes worn: my converse that are now all different colors thanks to the wonderful invention of markers :)

Last cd played: death cab

Last item bought: the new yellowcard cd

Last annoyance: seeing someone i didn’t really want to see at my favorite place

Last disappointment: being ignored by someone that I think I helped find his true self

Tue, 04 May 2004 19:49:12 GMT

hey...long time no add...lol

well this weekend was a drag went and hung out with my peeps then on saturday went tot he airport to pick up doma.....and so forth and so on....then i lost my power...like i guess we blew a fuse and the power upstairs went out...and we didnt have any at all this weekend and thats why i have not been able to add or speak with anyone

anyway...school is good and i cant wait for friday cause im goin out to dinner with robin...at andiamo's

and my mommie got a new job with robyn's mommie

what a coinkidink